Limping like Ceasar

I am totally celebrating my exercising today! I finally cleared 2 miles! And I was only on the machine as long as I normally am! I would've done a victory dance this morning, but there were witnesses in the weight room. I really think I'm going to have to join a gym when I get home.  I wanted to do weight type stuff when I was done, but I don't know enough about the machines to have done anything good.

Haven't heard back from the bartender. Which is kind of a shame and kind of not. I'm not going to screw with my career potential just to get laid. Although, to tell the truth and shame the devil, I completely miss getting laid. I lost a little interest, tho, when he sent me screenshot videos of the porn movie he was watching. I'm not kidding. I could be walking in a room of sheep and it would be the wolf wearing a disguise that would hit me up. That's not awful tho, I like a little kink.

Speaking of kink (it must've been you, I don't have conversations like that) I'm trying to maintain my distance with my old friend. I've missed him like crazy and want to share everything with him, but he's not mine. And I can't do that. It makes me sad to realize that. A little piece of me almost wishes he hadn't popped back up in my life. Something happens and I immediately want to share, and then realize I can't. It just means I need someone I can share that with so I don't feel the need to share with him, but ... until then I guess I share it here.

Work is wow. There is so much to this job. I can only hope I'm making a difference.  There are more than a few that I enjoy working with. There are a couple I could do without though. I'm still not sure how long I'll be here. I'll work on making the most of it though, while I'm here. I am getting a lot of experience and I'm grateful for it.

Holy crap I need to get ... I need to find my center. I need to find my core and my happiness. I need to find how to make me happy without anyone else.

And then scratch this itch cause it's making me feverish.